>> Thursday, October 23, 2008 ; 9:21 PM
Music for the Soul ^^
Before I go devour the "I Heart Revolution" Hillsong United CD, I need to go share this song. It's called "Wish" by Brian Littrell. The first time I heard the song, the lyrics pierced my heart. I want to go share this with anyone reading this post because it makes you think about our Saviour and His life. ^^Wish by Brian Littrell
For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
To see Your first step, hear Your very first word
Tell me, did You ever fall and scrape Your knee?
Did You know Your wounds would one day heal the world?
For just one moment
I wish I could have seen You growing
Learning the ways of a carpenter's son
Just a little boy gazing at the stars
But You remember creating every one
If you passed by, would I have seen a child or a King?
Would I have known?
I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see You, Jesus, face to face
For just a moment
I wish I could have been there
When You left Your footprints upon the waves
To walk along beside You and never look away
Just Your whisper and the wind and sea obey
To see You feed the people
To feel Your healing in Your touch
I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see You, Jesus, face to face
To hear you pray in the garden alone
Laying down Your will with each tear
To see You walk that lonely road
Willing to die for me
And in that moment
I know I should have been there
You took my cross and gave Your life
And you live again, oh
And You live again!
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You rise again
Wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see You, Jesus, face to face
Someday I'll be there, I'm gonna be there
I'll see Your face, Your mercy, Your grace
Someday, someday
I'm going to see You, Jesus
Face to face
*****
I especially like the lines "Just a little boy gazing at the stars... But You remember creating every one. If you passed by, would I have seen a child of a King? Would I have known?" Summarizing what I feel when I hear those words, it's GRABE. It makes me realize that my God also went through life, even through childhood. ^^ And those lines, "Did You ever fall and scrape Your knee? Did You know that Your wounds would one day heal the world?" My God is indeed an awesome God, and I praise Him for His immeasurable love. ^^
Labels: music, reflections
>> Monday, July 28, 2008 ; 7:39 PM
No matter how much it sucks...
You're closed out by the train station just when you are about to leave school due to a report. Your tests that day just went all wrong. You pull an all-nighter with your classmate since you cannot go home anyway, and you end up lacking sleep the next day - the day of the report. Sometimes, life just sucks.There are times when I knock my head because a) I worry too much or b) there are so much left to be done. During those instances, I want to go crazy and scream and jump all I can... but unfortunately, that won't do any good to me. Ever felt that way? When you just can't seem to handle all those problems coming your way? It's as if as this term is coming to an end this September, I am being succumbed to some "academic workload" that I think about it 60% of the time. This is when I wish that I am not the grade-conscious person I am, and that I can sleep soundly after 30 mins of "mourning" for a *bad* quiz.
Well... thank You, God... because You are still there. Even if I cry because of that weird feeling of stress which seems to suffocate me. Thank you for giving me peace every time I fall asleep, and for giving me the determination to go to school, even if during these times, I don't feel like it. I love You, Lord. You're the best. ^^
Labels: life, reflections, thanks
>> Saturday, July 19, 2008 ; 12:38 PM
A heart for our nation
Wow. After 2 long months, I finally had the "strength" to post again. LOL. BTW, today is my Mommy's/Inaynay's birthday. HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY, NAYNAY! ^^Anyway... school has been crazy these days. My analytical math went all weird during my second quiz. I don't know what happened. From my score of 96 on the first quiz, it plunged way way down to 53. That never happened before. I never even had a line of 5 in math! God's probably teaching me to depend on Him more. Though I'm disappointed of what happened to my math, I'm somehow inspired to rise from my fall and to trust Him more. ^^
Okay. Now I'm going to talk about the 'title' of this post. I'll ask you (whoever you are, Mr./Ms. Reader), "Have you ever cried so hard for our beloved country?" I just did. Last Thursday in Archer's Call (DLSU CCC fellowship/prayer time) I cried that I need to pause while praying. I never thought I'd cry for the Philippines, but I did. A lot of "crazy" stuff has been happening to our country, and it is about time that we turn our hearts to God to heal our broken land. ^^
... Back to my happy-happy mode. Yeah, I still have some stuff to do. (Asks to self: Why is engineering so demanding?! Hey, at least I'm not in Intarmed. *Go, go, go! My Intarmed friends!*) Still need to study! (And I thought this was gonna be a short post.) Till then!!! =P
-Kamae
Labels: birthday, Philippines, reflections, school
>> Thursday, May 22, 2008 ; 2:24 AM
Revisiting Gatekeepers
If there is one anime that I would consider "perfect," it has to be Gatekeepers. It's just my taste. A little bit of action, romance, friendship, comedy and sci-fi rolled into one. This summer, even if I'm already towards the end of it, since school starts on the 26th, I was able to watch the whole series again, and I can say that it still casts that same "spell" on me... just like when I first watched in when I was 10 years old.
Now, most people will call this thing a "review," but I would rather call it a reflection or a realization, whichever you prefer. Back when I was 10 years old, I regarded Gatekeepers as an anime with a group of youth in 1969 Japan who protects the world from invaders. Fast forward today, I am already 17, and I see past this theme of a group of people who protect something just because. Now, I am about the same age as the protagonists, a bit older and wiser, and despite Gatekeepers being a work of fiction, it reminds me of our current situation in life.
If I sum up Gatekeepers, it would be something like this: Life as we know it, withers and fades, but despite these things, we should concentrate on the "now", and hope for the best in the future. Sometimes, we only think of our own good, but there is that little voice in us that says that we should do what we can so that people in the future will benefit... Oh, I'm sorry if I'm too serious right now. Not my usual self, huh? Oh well... Sometimes, kailangan talaga magmuni-muni ng tao...
I'm thinking... kung dito sa 'Pinas (oh sige, kahit na pang-world na ang level), kaya ba natin maging ganito kaoptimistic for the future, even if it is possible that there are greater challenges ahead? When will people do things for the greater good, instead of merely fulfilling our selfish desires?
And... since it's summer, I was able to continue my Gatekeepers marathon by watching it's OVA, Gatekeepers 21. Many people say it's "darker" and more violent than the original Gatekeepers, and some prefer the former more, but I must say that it was Gatekeepers 21 that pierced my heart to the point that I even cried. It still retained that "Life as we know it, withers and fades..." thing, but it also dwelled on another theme I love a lot, friendship, family and forgiveness. I'm such a sucker for this things, am I not? hohoho. The OVA, in my terminology, is some up as: We dream of things that we wish we were, but we couldn't be. It is trough other people, those that we refer to as 'friends', that we become who we want to be... We at times, hate our parents for being 'incomplete'. They just don't seem to do the right things when we want them to, do they? But despite these imperfections they have, we will, even if we grow old and wrinkly, continue to treasure the memories they left behind because it is through their experiences (and even irritating sermons) that we learn and strive to become better people."
I am such a "life" person. Oh well. Can't be helped. ^^ Hopefully, my so-called "words of wisdom" *hoho* is of some help/inspiration/reflection for you. Till then! And, I do hope it's a "lighter" post next time! =P
Labels: anime, life, reflections
>> Friday, May 18, 2007 ; 5:26 PM
4 days left of summer... hmm... countdown ba 'to?
Since I've got nothing that productive to do anyway, I'm gonna go post about my last days! Nyahahaha. This will probably carry on up until the 23rd. ^_^I'm gonna miss summer. *sigh* I do not really care if my summer life is what you consider boring. Other people find lying back and slacking off day by day a nuisance, but for me, it's paradise. I love the feeling of sleeping everynight not having nightmares of not being able to pass projects, failing tests, and the like. Summer is total bliss for me, whether our family has some trip or so. It is one of those "time periods" when school does not bother you at all (as long as you are not taking remedial classes), and all those pimples on your face miracously disappear. (I think. hehehe.)
Going back to school after summer break makes me anxious and happy (without one emotion ruling over the other). Anxious since I'll have schoolwork to think of again, and since my course is Biomedical Engineering, I better catch up and read my Biology lessons in advance (since I need to read the book itself in order to fully understand the topic. I don't know why I don't understand it ASAP like all other students who just listen in class and understnd the topic easily). Happy because I'll be starting another phase of my life (as a college freshman) and see other things beyond my "world" to date. (It's not that I'm not happy in my previous years of going back to school again... I miss my friends over the summer, you know... even if they're just a phone call away).
Ok... I need to go. We're still heading of to some mall. Till then!
-Kamae
Labels: reflections, summer
>> Saturday, November 25, 2006 ; 9:20 PM
The past two months...
Wow. Over two months have passed since my last post. Time sure flies, huh?I've been dead in my net life lately. I'm not as active as I was over two months ago. Quite a lot of things happened. It's not like those in my previous posts that it has been happy, or whatever. These past two months have been a series of ups and downs: learning to be independent, recovering from a loss, hanging on to God, and appreciating the unexpected blessings He gives when you thought He had indeed taken something away.
I really want to laugh because God had (and is continuing) to make me grow as a person. In the previous months, there were times when I would just want to give up, lose hope... be miraculously sick one day in order to be absent from school. School was, and still is, intoxicating. For the past two weeks, I was fed up from school. My brain couldn't study any longer. It wanted to explode. I had headaches, making me study less. Sometimes, tears wanted to drop from my eyes because I wanted to give up so badly, but everytime I see my parents, I know I cannot disappoint them. I needed to survive school. Everytime they talk to me and try to comfort me, this idea flash in my brain: "When I get through these sufferings, I'll look at them as the past, and I'll laugh and smile because I know I made it."
My first pet, Prince (dog), was supposed to celebrate his 9th birthday last Wednesday, November 22. (I cannot believe I'm starting to cry right now just talking about my dog.) He died over a month ago, last October 11 (which coincidentally is my cousin Nikka's 9th birthday), at about noon. I already knew that he was going away soon, but I don't want to talk about it. No matter what other people say, he will always be special to me. I knew something was wrong when I arrived home and I did not see him in his usual spot (in the entrance to our door), yet I never bothered asking anyone about what happened to him. I knew something was wrong. I was scared to find out exactly what that is, I knew that knowing the truth at that time (it was our last day of exam the next day) will make me lose my will to study. When my mother fetched me from school at my last day of examination, she then told me what happened to my dear pet. Of course, I cried. Who wouldn't? Yes, he is old. I knew he had a hard time roaming about the house. He didn't have the same strength he had back in the good old days. I also wanted him to rest. God gave Prince a lot of chances to live (yes, he almost died a lot of times.. about 3-4 times), and I cried each time. This time, even if I cried, it was different. This time I was prepared for what happened. Unlike the previous times when I cried because I did not want to let go yet, I cried because he was my first pet. He's special to me and I'm gonna miss him.
It was a surprise when our mini-schnauzer, Terrie, gave birth to two adorable puppies 6 days later. Who would've knew she was pregnant? I mean... she is so FAT. Nobody would know that she finally got hit by Toby, our pomeranian. (My tears have dried up now. I'm in a happy mood once again. ^_^) When I found out that Pie (I fondly call Prince "Pie") died, I said that I didn't like to have a new dog for a while. We still have 2 left anyway, and 3 dogs had been a handful. But unfortunately, (haha. Unfortunately indeed) God makes ways alright. He took away one, he replaced it with two, and it was an express replacement. ^_^ He is indeed an awesome God. I cannot express my thanks because it made my emotional recovery a lot easier... But you know what? It is hard to take care of puppies. Hahaha. ^_^
During the past weeks, I was able to do things I cannot do before. I actually read our English reading all by myself . (I'm so proud since my dad always sits by me with these.) I finally am not worrying about Prince coughing or not eating or whatever. I get loaded with tons of schoolwork, and even though if the task's herculean, I know I will make it. ^_^
Oh yeah, I forgot to say that me and 4 other Pisay people (Patrick Abarquez, Francis Infante, Homer Isidro and Joshua Lat), together with PKMNph pips went to the EXDragon Frontiers pre-release last November 5. ^_^ (Of course I need to mention Pokemon at least once in this incredibly long post.)
-Kamae
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